It’s time of the term

HOLIDAY!!!

Time is flying super fast! Is the term break again! 3 weeks for this time. I definitely would say that I kind of regret quitting my job. Now I’m jobless at home and I’m just lazy to do anything but eat. I actually hope that I will be able to workout more and eat less during this holiday. But I don’t think is working. 

It’s already starting of first week of holiday, and I did nothing exciting. I only read like 2 books and nothing much.  I always think that my holiday would be fun and productive like all my other friends.(which will actually never happen) But after night cycling talking to one of my friend. I realise how my life is so freaking lonely. It sucks to realise that you really don’t have a close friend by your side during times especially holiday. I only just stay at home and do nothing. But the fact that there will never have someone that will be at our side 24/7. Everyone have their own life. 

I decided to rant here than ranting in my private Instagram as they are all my friends, the moment I rant I will make everyone feel bad. I feel like I’m FOMO, but I don’t do anything from my cca and I didn’t sign up anything. 

I wish I could be independent enough to travel overseas or go somewhere to take nice and aesthetic photos. But something inside of my is stopping everything I want to do. I feel like I don’t think is the things required but is more like the feeling inside of me. I realised how much I actually hate what I feel and how I feel. 

If only I had the money, I could sign up for lesson and do whatever things I like, the fact that I realised I always complain every single things. That kind of sucks. 🙃