What’s in my mind

It’s nice when someone gives another person a dedication post or something special. It’s the best if you are the one receiving it. But it is just me but I feel like I feel bad inside me. I’m not sure is it jealousy or just something is missing in me. It’s sucks to feel like this. Guess what I always feel like that. I wouldn’t lie. Is easy to receive than giving. But the fact that that someone out there does not belongs to only me. That’s the fact that all humans have to suck it up. People always says that I am very outgoing, popular in school. But the fact that the popularity isn’t real it sucks more. Because people would think that oh you don’t really need me as you have others to accompany you. And that’s went things gets shitty. 

I won’t lie the fact that I get jealous super easy, even seeing people going out with their friends makes me feel like shit in the inside. You might think that it is not my fault but it is just my brain that thinks that way.