Feeling unproductive

Till now I feel like the end of year 3 and until now wasn't a good year. From crazy itchy leg situation to the COVID which cause us to be stuck at home and have no graduation ceremonies (which I don't really care for this). 

Recently I tried to exercise more often and even get started with diet but guess what things ain't working as much as I thought it would be. The fact that I'm exercising I do feel stronger but my weight didn't go down ( blame me from eating too much). But what sucks the most is that I didn't lose any weight but I'm having more unpleasant things growing on my body. Which are stretch marks and more spider veins? I mean for your information from what I know only people who are that lose a lot of weight or pregnant would get these things. And I'm neither ... AND IM ONLY 21

That's why I'm feeling like shit more because I'm not slimming down but getting more stretch marks at my calf area which doesn't make sense at all. Btw, the own treatment that I know of that can help remove them is by laser treatments. I mean I can't afford them at all. So bye to my model and air stewardess dream. 

For now, I just hope it doesn't increase is size and number.