Before the end of my teen

Yesterday night, I managed to meet my primary school friends and also some new friends to play mahjong and just talk about life. I was wearing my IR shirt cause we actually plan to play badminton but we were too into the mahjong game that we just ditch the idea of playing badminton. 

One of the new friends I knew through this meetup was actually from SP and she actually participated the IR as a participant. That’s a part when both of us was just talking about how did IR go saying about like the GL and GM of IR and also FOC even though I back out halfway due to work. 

That day was the day I realized because of them I knew more friendship that meant a lot to me even though most of them are one year younger than me. Also, I learned how to play mahjong thanks to them. 

I’m thankful for them entering my life at the age of 19. Yes, friendships are easy to break difficult to get closer. But as long as what I can remember of all the memories I’m very thankful for you guys. 

Of cause I’m also thankful for the few friends I always have in my life in school. I will be so depressed if I was like a total loner in school. Fun fact I love to be alone anywhere but just in school. 🙃

4 years of Secondary and going to 4 years of Polytechnic just made me realize that I just don’t have fat to have long term friendships with people. I’m always the one breaking and leaving the clique. I’m very sorry to the person that left the clique with me. I will never forget you and even if our friendship become weaker and further I will always be there when you need help. (If I’m capable to help you) 

When I was young, I’m the person that always put my friends first then my family. Yes, I kind of still do but now I am trying to balance out these two. I hate to say this but when I always try I feel like I’m desperate but when I don’t try no one does anything and I’m the one suffering. Maybe is just fate that I will always get the same situation but I really pray the start of being twenty can change my fate and make my life a little happier and that’s all I want. 

Thank you Eileen for just sucking up for 20 years of yourself being a no talent person cause all you can do is eat. The fact that now you lost the interest of food makes yourself even more like shit. I hope in like a year or just a few years you will be able to find what you really love and just go for it! :)