Guys // alone

A lot of girls including me, always want to hang out with guys. Getting into poly, I was lucky enough to have this kind of chance to be able to hang out with a few guys. Starting from PFP and Year 1 IR. It is fun for sure. But sometimes if you aren’t that close to the guys, things might get a bit weird? Or more of like difficult. Is like I feel the awkwardness even though me and my guy friends are close. I felt that 

*Friends please don’t blame yourself, I feel like I blog to blame myself*

But guys some might care but then the majority don’t give a fk about things. After being alone during my close to two months holiday. I obviously have become more and more antisocial. Being alone is like a normal thing for me. I used to hate being alone/ left out in a clique. I feel that I have slowly adapt to this thing about my life? It kind of doesn’t impact me anymore. I followed a youtuber aka kristyu. She is dabomb. Super aesthetic and cool!! Currently, she is having her solo trip to Denmark for two weeks. So cool!! She totally inspired me to go my own solo trip. But of cause, I need the money *kaching*. But I feel like solo trip won’t cost much? Because you either find the cheapest things to do but the bad thing is that if you want to try something that’s a big problem. Also, safety is another huge problem. Living in Singapore with such a strong security we can go anywhere and not being afraid to do things outside even at midnight. But I Guess that’s a no no I’m other countries!! Also, language barrier is just hard to communicate!!

Okay, I feel like I’m just complaining why I’m not doing a solo trip. I should shut up. 

•Back to the alone thing

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I wish I could find someone that can do stupid things with me, talk things and just do things together. I used to have one but of cause, things have changed. Of cause not blaming her because of the fact that we are now in different schools. It makes everything difficult. Of cause who doesn’t want to have that one friend. 

What sucks most is that I’m not doing anything about it. :) yeaa I’m just a lazy ass waiting for things to come. 

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So we know that we always have awkward situations that we always get ignored. Hmm.. why do people ignore? Did they not hear you? Do they don’t have the answer/response to your question/reply? Or the worst case is they don’t want to reply you? Hmm, humans are like something that we just can’t control.