When will be my turn to shine?

I used to be a choir member. From a normal member to a section leader. I always think that because the lack of manpower hence my instructor chose me as a section leader. I was always the one who is not talented and just like a normal person you see on the road. 

In polytechnic, nothing has change. I which I can show my talent or just little things that I am good at. But I can’t seem to find it and also no one compliments me at all. So, I eventually just gave up finding what I was good at. 

Am I the only weirdo that secretly want to get nominated to be someone with a higher rank not like a leader for a project. 

From primary school until now I don’t really get a chance to really be someone that I wish I can. For example, class chairperson and the lists go on.

Till now I still think that I actually should really step up my game by taking responsibilities. What I realized is that I always blame myself for not being a person I want to be because of my English. I would say that I was never good at language and I have no idea why I still want to learn another language. 😅

I'm always surrounded by people with good personalities and good leadership. I guess that might be one of the EXCUSES I am making out to say that I suck. Sometimes we just have to suck it up and just do what you want. Actually more like who you wish to be in the future. As if you want to be someone tourist have to step out of your comfort zone and do something you don't want and like. That's how you can learn and experience new things.