Who am I

Went half day of shopping trying out new things that I would always want to try. Some are nice but it just make me look fat. For example, my arms become more bulkier after years, my tummy is showing and of cause what always bother me is definitely my huge ass thighs. It really makes me hate my body.  Yes I do have a long body (height) , but what was the problem is my thighs was so huge that I always cannot find the right size bottom. If a pants fit my thighs it doesn't fit my butt and hip. Which means my body wasn't proportionate to even fit a proper set of clothes.

It really bothers me so much. Yes I do read things that try to make myself happier and make me love myself. I really trying so hard to embrace myself.

What I realised after time is that, I always laugh so much that I really feel that I am not myself anymore.